Pre Quit Day 1: The Starting of my Smoke Free Life.

     Today's Pre-Quit Day Number One. I'm now working on the ultimate goal of quitting for good. Even though I haven't gotten my NRT (Nicotine Replacement Therapy) by mail yet, I'm going to start working towards my quit date. You may be asking yourselves, but Deejaegh what have you done today to work towards becoming smoke-free? Well, I'll tell you what I've done today. 


Pre-Quit Day 1: The Starting of my Smoke-Free Life.


    I've been a smoker for years, and I am so ready to quit. It came to me as a shock, the last times I was apparently "ready" to quit for good, I wasn't mentally ready to quit. I've learned that you must be mentally, physically, and spiritually ready to quit a habit. In my case, to be able to quit smoking for good. In recent months, I became very embarrassed that I was a smoker, and my dog Tyberious from time to time steals my Cigarettes and chews them up (pack and all), and I know those two things are signs for me. To be honest, I've battled this addiction since I was 14 years old. My brother and my stepfather smoked, and I thought that it was something cool because obviously my brother and my stepfather did it.
    In my case, that was no reason to start. Honestly, I wish I never started in the first place but, that was my past, and this is my future. You can either walk away from your past or you can stay in your past and never change for the better. What does this all have to do with today's entry? Well, to be honest, absolutely nothing.
    Today,  honestly I was coming to terms that my addiction to Tobacco is coming to an end and honestly, I'm still on the fence about it. I'm coming to terms that I am not only doing this for my dog but, I am doing this for myself. I'm honestly scared of what the future may hold but, I'm ready to fight the addiction with all of my might. I wish I had quit years ago.
    On top of this, I went to see some friends, and I had to pay my bills. Upon doing this I also got my dog treats for the month, because I am a film student and I am proud of that fact. I was really depressed yesterday too, well, I've been very depressed for the last week. My term ended last Thursday, and I've been waiting for my grades for that long as well. I also, need to know what my new schedule is like so I can start booking the classes into my Outlook Calendar so that I know when I can do certain things like going on LIVE Streaming. But, then again I probably won't know until after the 30th of June when the official ending of the term is. Then again, I like knowing more than a week in advance to start planning for the three months.
    This is why I've been super depressed, as of late. Amongst other things as well. This led to today when I was super depressed and accidentally chain-smoked a pack of cigarettes in a matter of 7 hours. This is not usually like me, I usually smoke a pack a day, but to smoke a pack in a time of 7 hours is crazy to me. I must have been either that bored or depressed. However, I did the daily check-in on Smoke-Free either way because I am committed to my health, and quit on my Birthday which is coming soon.
    I know that this was an obstacle, and I am going to quit regardless. Good thing I have the NRT to help me through the next 10 weeks starting on the 5th. This is how committed to quitting and staying quit.

Dee



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